I’ve been thinking a lot lately about my life and the direction that I want it to go in. I have been working fervently lately at all of my goals, but because I have so much on my plate and so many things I want to do, I feel as though I’m not putting my all into everything I want. This brings me back to a conversation I had with someone two years ago. This person used to have a blog and she told me that she stopped because it started feeling like a task to her. What started as something fun and therapeutic for her turned into a job and she found herself trying to please viewers rather than trying to get out what she needed to say. I think, for the sake of keeping up with my viewers and producing posts consistently just so I have something, I haven’t been dedicating enough to my posts. I am a much better writer than I sometimes show on my posts because I find that instead of writing because I have something to say, I am simply writing because I have to have something there.
I have so much I need to say. So much I want to put out there, but I’m so busy that I put this blog on the back burner, and because of that, I personally feel as though my latest posts haven’t had as much substance or meaning to them as they could have. I want my writing to mean something to people, but most importantly, I want it to mean something to me. I want to paint pictures with my words and I don’t want them to be monotonous or typed up late at night when I am half asleep, with one eye open.
So I am taking a break. A short one. I have three weeks left in my semester and it’s been the most overwhelming semester I’ve had thus far in my graduate school career, but I’ve been successful so far and in order for me to end the semester successfully, I need to take the time to genuinely focus on the assignments, projects and insane amount of lengthy papers I have left. In addition to focusing on school, I’m going to take the time to relax between work and school, as we wrap up the holiday season. (I work in retail). I’m grateful I have readers who invest in their time to see what I have to say. I am thankful for feedback and for any one of you who like or share any one of my posts. I want to come back after this break, with more passion and fire than what I’ve put into this as of late.
I don’t know if I’ll be back in three weeks when the semester ends, in four when Christmas comes rolling along, or in five, after the new year. All I know is I this is merely an intermission. I’m going to work on revamping my blog and seeing if WordPress is really where I want my thoughts to be (lately I’ve been frustrated because I want my blog to be more aesthetically pleasing, and that’s difficult with WordPress). I want to change everything visually about my blog and I want to take the time to commit to writing well and writing posts that are more earth-shattering than what I’ve written lately.
I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving and a happy and healthy rest of the Holiday season. This is only a short hiatus. I’ve been cooking up some plans for my blog, so I can promise you, as my readers, and myself as the person behind this that I’m not going anywhere. I’ll be back soon, with more motivation, dedication and commitment to sharing my story.
As Arnold Schwarzenegger once said, I’ll be back.
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